I'm ok. I swear.

This morning I rolled over and felt alone
Which made sense because I was by myself
as is the case most mornings
But today the loneliness felt stronger than ever
I forced my eyes open
gave them a rub
And as my vision cleared, so did my mind.
Memories writhed inside,
attacking my will to ever get up.
As I saw you and I imagined myself pixelating into the air
how I wished
just to float away.
But you're no longer ambient in my life.
You don't care.
You don't matter.

...and I'm ok.